hmm

not been on in a long time, mainly use my myspace www.myspace.com/jimthegray
life is still life, still single, working and trying to live again

job

Well started my new job thursday.
its probably the best oppertunity of my life financially.
and I am scared to death.
I have a bad habit of screwing up my life.
But I am giving this my best and we shall see.
Been on a few dates, slept with a few woman but still missing my ex wife painfully though I can occasionally go a few days before she pops into my head.
thats all to bable about for the moment.

weird week

this week i have run into more old friends and associates then in the last 4 years.
all random and in odd places.
it's cool but weird.
in 1 case i ran into emily tonight who i have not seen in 6 years just 5 minutes after i mentioned her to a friend

tired

this training is long, i honestly wonder if i will get through it and enjoy this job.
well time will tell, though this being broke thing is getting old.
Had the worst nightmares last night, do not really remember them.

training

still training in my new job have 2 or 3 more weeks of training.
28 foot ladders hanging on a wire on the side of the street is a disconcerning thing to say the least :)

job

Well I got a job starting tomorrow, had to cut my hair, this is the 1st time since like 94 or 95 that i have had short hair.
It feels so odd.

what a year

lost my job friday, so now this year its a wife and a job lost.
to really make matters irateing my vision is now a lil blurry.
i am really not liking this year

uggg

feeling sick to my belly today :(
been wanting to throw up sense 3:30 this morning, i am not working today which sucks because i cannot afford a lot of time off.
hopfully i will be feeling better later

its funny

in all my life I have never been hurt as badly as charlene hurts me.
To her our marrage was a waste of time maybe even a joke.
why is it i cannot stop loving her?
I makes no sense.

well

finally got my devorce papers saying i am devorced.
feeling very numb right now.
my brain has been very cludy this last few monthes so not sure what i think.
I know that i still love her and hope that one day she is in some way back in my life.

nuff said for now

blah

been having finacial issues lately
had several bad checks which put me in the hole.
been working on fixing it
would like to get charlene 1500 near future
and i need a grand...
blah.

yawm

decided to take last night off, needed the sleep.
the worst thing about this job is the 24 hour on call part :)

jimthegray

jimthegray: "been a long week, cold and wet is not the most fun weather to change tires in plus i got a bad allergic reaction to something, but today is a new week."

jimthegray

jimthegray

k i think i am finally figureing this out :)